I lost my appetite for food at the same time as I gained a new insatiable appetite for life. It happened just before my 50th birthday. It wasn't a subtle shift. It happened all at once as if my upcoming birthday created a sense of urgency that wasn't there before. I was suddenly in a race against time. A race to be seen with only weeks until the invisibility set in. This is the record of the appetite that set in when that race began and all of the ways I have been feeding it.